Let Your Voice Be Heard

      I've come to the realization that this blog is my way of venting about my life and everything that happens in it. Last night was a weird one for me. I suddenly was overwhelmed with feelings of sadness and regrets. My issue usually ends up being about relationships. I've never had a girlfriend and it frustrates me. I feel that I haven't grown the typical way. Most people start dating in high school, sometimes earlier. In that facet, I'm underdeveloped.
     Sometimes, it makes me really sad. Makes me wonder like maybe I'm not good enough for someone to like. But what I will not do is change who I am despite who may have a problem with the way I carry myself. Some people that I've encountered have thought that I was gay, which is not the case. I'm know I'm not the most masculine guy around. When you're raised in a house consisting mainly of women, a little boy will exhibit some feminine traits. I know who I am and I like who I am. But it still gets frustrating when people are constantly criticizing me and my actions.
     I've been suffering in silence for quite some time. I never want to be the one to burden people with my problems, much rather be the helper. Those sad feelings start to affect my self-image. I begin to feel like that shy, fluffy kid that was ashamed of his appearance. It just brings my entire mood down. Last night, my friend saw that I was clearly in some distress. And I opened up a bit more than I usually would. It was a breakthrough of sorts. So my advice to everyone that reads this blog is to TALK. Let your voice be heard, tell someone how you're feeling. Keeping quiet gives the negative energy WAYYYYY too much power. Talking about your problems is the first step to solving them. The older I get, the more I come to understand this. As my wife Janet has said time and time again, we are all a "Work in progress".

Back In the Swing of Things

As usual, my inspiration hits me once I'm in the gym. I went today for the first since my vacation last week. There was a gym in the hotel, but it wasn't that great. I was LIVING on this vaca. By living, I mean I was EATINGGGGG. You name it, I had it: fries, burgers, pizza, fudge, taffy, FRIED OREOS (jizz), soda, juice, mac and cheese. Everything I shouldn't have, I ate and it was GLORIOUS. But now, reality has set in, and I have some work to do. My first trip back to the gym was rough and it kicked my ass. Once I got into it, I literally fell back into the swing of things. I mean, of course I need a vacation every once in a while, but I'm a worker at heart. I need that balance and routine in my life, that's how I've always been. School/Gym/Work for the next six weeks. Not only that, but my birthday is next month and I wanna feel better and look great. I know the tools to lose weight and be healthy, just DOING it is the hard part. When you go from eating whatever you want to doing the healthy living stuff, it sucks. That's my life, I do what needs to be done and do it to the best of my abilities. I think everyone needs to adopt that attitude in life. There's so much stress going on in the world. Just need to get in that grind mode and do what needs to be done and do it as well as you can. And remember, smile throughout the day. It truly goes a long way =).

Dream Come True!

March 16th, my life was made complete: I went to see Janet Jackson live in concert!!! I think it finally hit me today, so I gotta blog about it. What could've been a disasterous day, ended up being one of the greatest in my life. I almost missed the show because my ride fell through. Luckily, my angel in disguise Kollette came through and we drove up to Mohegan Sun and made it right on time!!!!! The lights went out and it was showtime!!! When she stepped onto the stage, I honestly didn't believe that I was in the same room as my fitness guru and future wife (Mr & Mrs. Vaughn Jackson)! I was up the whole night singing every word. If I had more space to move, I would've broke out into full choreography but I didn't wanna die. But anywho, my girl Janet put in work!!!! She danced and sang LIVE, for anyone who thinks otherwise. And her body was just hmmmm, had a brotha drooling!!! She's 44 years old, and doing it better than any other artist out there. When you can sing and dance at the same time, and not be afraid to sweat it all out, you know you're BAD!!!!! But anywho, it truly was one of the top moments in my life. Maybe I was a bit delusional, but I swear she waved to me. Now I may have been in the back of the arena, but there was a connection =)))))!!!! I don't think there's anything that can top it. If you can, go out and get tickets ASAP. I guarantee you will not regret it. I cannot stop smiling =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Life is so good!!!!!!

Hola P90X

 

 Rewind back to april 2010. The weight had stopped dropping so quickly. I had reached that dreadful plateau that people always talk about. Everything that I had been doing wasn't working so effectively. It was pissing me off and didn't know what to do. But then, one random night I was watching infomercials and of course this program called P90X popped up. As with anything being sold on tv, I was pretty damn skeptical. Then I sat and watched and my jaw literally dropped. Those before and after shots were no joke. I said to myself : "sign me up"!!!! That may, I ordered my copy of P90X. 120 dollars o_O. But it was definitely worth the cost. Once I went home from school I started pressing play. That first week, I literally needed a wheelchair to get around. I've never been in that kind of pain in my life. All that damn jumping and yoga -____- FML Results weren't so quick for me. After the first months I could notice here and there that my body was changing. My friends could tell better than I could. By day 90, I lost about 15 pounds and got some more muscle definition. I still do it P90X occasionally, I prefer to be in the gym. Also, I've incorporated some those moves into my regular workouts these days. People look at me like "whoa".  I'm very thankful that I bought these dvds, really changed my life and gave me the variety that I needed. I recommend it to anyone who wants to get in shape, go for it!!!!

Girls, Girls, Girls.....

With losing weight, my confidence level has definitely gone up in the last few years. At the same time, I've gotten wayyyy more attention from girls. The girls that I tried to talk to in high school all of a sudden realized how cool of a guy I am. All it took was 100 pounds of fat burned to get it. "Ohhhh you look so handsome" "Damn looking good". Hmmmm, that's funny, a few years ago I was a fat f*uck and ugly and smelly. All I can say is hmmmm *eye roll*. Anywho, I can tell when a girl is being genuine to me and those who are just slutbags and stalkers. I've grown to be able to read people and their intentions. I'm still single, and THANK GOD. Girls are just wayyyyy too much drama. I've never had a girlfriend and I am in no rush anymore. I'm patiently waiting for the right young lady to come my way, until then I'm just focused on school, work, and shaping up my body.

*p.s. never trust a big butt and a smile...... cause you'll get herpes* I kid, I kid!!

Vote FOR ME!!!!!!!!

Ok guys, I have a small request. I'm going to see Janet Jackson's concert next wednesday. She has this contest going on her website for people who are contributing to the community and doing great things. So my friends suggested that I put a request on my blog. So guys let's make this happen. If I got to meet her I think life would be complete. So if you would be so kind here's my info:
Vaughn Martin
email: vanxmar10@aol.com
unlisted city.
Thanks guys, =)
and the link: http://www.janetjackson.com/20_under_20_nominations

Time Time Time

I was at the gym and I came up with this idea for my next post. So I woke up late to hit the gym this morning. Usually I go at 7 for about an hour and change. That transformed into 8:00 this morning. I only had a half hour to get a good workout in because I have class in like 20 minutes actually. So I did 15 minutes on the machine, and then another 15 of jump rope, push-ups and wall squats. It was a sweaty one. People believe that you have to be in the gym hardcore for two hours a day. Truth of the matter is, people just don't have that kind of time. a good half hour is all you truly need for some cardio and/or weight lifting. It works for me and hopefully for you all as well. Here's some ideas of different workouts you can do within that half hour:

Push-ups for 1 minute
wall squats for 90 seconds
squat thrusts for 1 minute
Running in place for two minutes
Jump rope for five minutes
Now repeat that set a few times, and you'll be sure to feel the pain.
You wanna aim for low intensity exercises but with multiple repetitions.
Challenge yourself and see how many pushups you can do in a minute, or how many jumps you can do in five. Don't get comfortable with the movements, always try and switch it up and not reach that dreadful plateau that everyone speaks of.
Give it a try and let me know if this works for you.
Now it's time for class, so I'll catch you guys later!!!!!!
P.S. Thank you to everyone who continues to read my blog in all of these different countries and cities. It truly means a lot to me =)