Let Your Voice Be Heard

      I've come to the realization that this blog is my way of venting about my life and everything that happens in it. Last night was a weird one for me. I suddenly was overwhelmed with feelings of sadness and regrets. My issue usually ends up being about relationships. I've never had a girlfriend and it frustrates me. I feel that I haven't grown the typical way. Most people start dating in high school, sometimes earlier. In that facet, I'm underdeveloped.
     Sometimes, it makes me really sad. Makes me wonder like maybe I'm not good enough for someone to like. But what I will not do is change who I am despite who may have a problem with the way I carry myself. Some people that I've encountered have thought that I was gay, which is not the case. I'm know I'm not the most masculine guy around. When you're raised in a house consisting mainly of women, a little boy will exhibit some feminine traits. I know who I am and I like who I am. But it still gets frustrating when people are constantly criticizing me and my actions.
     I've been suffering in silence for quite some time. I never want to be the one to burden people with my problems, much rather be the helper. Those sad feelings start to affect my self-image. I begin to feel like that shy, fluffy kid that was ashamed of his appearance. It just brings my entire mood down. Last night, my friend saw that I was clearly in some distress. And I opened up a bit more than I usually would. It was a breakthrough of sorts. So my advice to everyone that reads this blog is to TALK. Let your voice be heard, tell someone how you're feeling. Keeping quiet gives the negative energy WAYYYYY too much power. Talking about your problems is the first step to solving them. The older I get, the more I come to understand this. As my wife Janet has said time and time again, we are all a "Work in progress".